If there is a characteristic about myself which I would always remark is imperfection. It really kills me, strong and negative self critic is a usual stream of thought for me.

When doing something I would torture myself with bad thoughts, wondering if someone would just do it better, or thinking I am just not the best for the task.

I can remember clearly playing football when I was a kid, I was terrible and my best friend at that time, who was one of the best players, would help me to improve. I can see it, I can remember the exact feeling of having a ball passed by him with empty goal and failing. Hands to the head, regret, looking around, how could I've missed it? Never mind, it is gone... and now the ball is on the other side of the field, move!! I hear from far...

That simple, yet powerful gesture would slow me down in everything I did ever since. Thankfully, I have been able to improve during the years, however, I haven't managed to kill it once and for all.

Nevertheless, this is not there when I am with kindred spirit close friends. I just enjoy, I am there, I am in the situation, I am. This has been there since forever. A great example has been this trip, we have started without a clear plan, we have missed some things, we have discovered others, but I never tortured myself with it, I was happy in every single moment.

I've reached a point in live in which I realise, I need to start focusing all my energy on myself to improve, forget about the outside and work towards the things I really want, with no regrets. It is not going to be easy but I have the best company now to achieve it, myself!

I would have loved having someone telling me the story about The Great Wave off Kanagawa by Hokusai, how this artist took 30 years of his live repeating his view of the Great Wave. Several tries, no failures, just the way to the final piece of art he dreamt of. Thankfully, I have discovered myself and it has indeed inspired me.

Diego